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Peace of Mind, but now I know what it really is. know now that my total human self encompasses both Charles and Virginia, that both can and must live not just in the mind but in the flesh, in communi- cation and interchange with other humans. Morover, I have found that there are more people than you might suspect who are willing to accept me as a human being whether I appear before them as a man or as a woman. This, of course, greatly fortifies my sense of my own totality and erases the feeling of playing a "role" be it a masculine or feminine one. This, combined with my awareness of the value of contrast of the masculine and feminine elements and the unwillingness to commit myself 100% to either plus the opportunity that my new home affords me to really unfold my "anima", --that aspect of my total self which though very much a part of me (and all men) has been inhibited and supressed in varying degrees all of Charles life, makes me very much aware that the goal, the end point of TVism is just these things. 1) awareness of the need for expres- sion of ones total self thus rejecting both surgery and full time dedication to the feminine side, 2) awareness that one continues to maintain a real en- joyment of and appreciation for womankind as people personifying one of the two prime aspects of exist- ance and not merely as objects to be used for the satisfaction of ones sexual needs--thus rejecting the idea of competing with them for male sexual act- ivity (homosexuality) which by the very nature of it degrades the beautiful and creative aspect of the female, and finally 3) arrival at a set of circum- stances, economic, domestic, social and psychological whereby one can unfold ones inner self in freedom and openness to such a degree that self acceptance becomes pride in oneself and dreams become reality.

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The fact that most of those setting out on the long march to this goal will not get there for a variety of reasons does not in any way diminish the reality of the condition. Probably most of those who read these lines will not have the good fortune

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